Day 41: Long distance love letters

Today I checked the mailbox and was surprised to find sweet Valentine's Day cards for me and the kids from Dan. It's such a nice surprise to hear from him and a personal note is even better. P actually took her Valentine to bed with her tonight so she could be close to her Daddy.

I was also able to talk with Dan today for the first time in about a week. I won't lie - it's tough. I'm always so thankful to see his face and hear his voice but it also brings this huge rush of emotions that make me want to cry and scream all at the same time. I think we both do a good job of faking like we're tough but seeing each other always makes it so much more real. Because the truth is that I want to shout, "I MISS YOU! My life is not the same without you! Heck, I don't even HAVE much of a life! Please, please, come home soon and be safe! We need you!" But doing that every day would be impossibly difficult for both of us. Therefore, I will resign myself to reading long distance love letters, smiling and acting like it's just another day when on the inside my heart is aching for my husband to just come back home.